Bite Me (as taken from my Facebook status)

Or actually it said: Bite me, World. Go pick on someone your own size. And that is exactly how I feel. I'm so frustrated, sad, hurt.. oh I could go on. My world feels like it's in shambles, but what's funny is that none of it is directly happening to me.
Tomorrow (July 29Th) is/would be Rhonda's Birthday. These last few weeks have really gotten to me about that. There is the annual Silvana Fair that she's been a part of forever. This year they are dedicating the fair to her and all these people are putting pictures up. A good friend of Mike and Rhonda's brought in all the pictures last week and I totally broke down when she showed me them. In turn, I feel guilty when I get sad about her... especially in front of the boys, or Mike. Like it's not for me to be sad over, even though I know it isn't true... I just don't want to burden them with that too.
To make matters worse, little Shawn, remember him from here, has came out of remission. We found out on Friday that his cancer has returned and that his numbers make the chances of curing him look "not good."
Our good friends Justin and Lacey Knowles' son Kelan has also been fighting cancer, and I can't remember if I've mentioned him or not...he has been battling a few months. We got discouraging news today that his tumor has grown despite the chemotherapy. He will begin chemo again on Friday for 2 rounds, then a CT and probably surgery to remove some of the tumor.
Don't get me wrong here people, at least regarding these 2 amazing little boys, I have faith, and I have hope...and I pray that they will be cured. But I do seem to have a tendency to doubt the higher ups during moments like these because it is so ridiculously unfair that anyone should have to go through all of this, let alone 2
little boys who havn't even begun to live their lives.
I guess, there's my rant for the day. Sorry I can't seem to conjure up something happy or mood lifting for you all...




Shawn at Easter


Me and Kelan, his first weekend at Children's Hospital.

allergies?

Hello folks...
Seems like summer is so crazy for everyone, but I know, that's now excuse for not blogging. I really can't remember when I have had such horrible allergies. My kids are being affected by it, but that's not too weird, they've always had allergies. Me, not so much. This year has been rough on me... I'm not used to getting sick and so far this year, I've had strep throat and a sinus infection. Oh, and guess what I still have my sinus infection, after a quick trip to the doc this morning I also have allergies. Aaaaaand a uti. TMI? Sorry.
Luckily, I can be on one antibiotic for 10 days that will hopefully get rid of both. Sinus infection once and for all. I'm also going to try some allergy medicine that the doc gave me as a sample! That was nice, and I'm really hoping that this all works and I'll be back to new before I know it!
Our summer is jampacked from here on out......maybe tonight I'll get my sh*t together and post some of the pics you've all been missing out on...

Happy 4th of July.

Ours was definitely different than usual. Because of our busy schedule we didn't go to Lopez, which in the long run, ended up being a good thing. Friday night we enjoyed a BBQ at our friends house and kept the kids up way to late, but they had so much fun. Saturday night we went to papa's house and tested out his new fire pit. It works great. Camden had his first s'more and we all had a sleepover. Camden woke up a few times in the night, but we didn't think anything of it because it's the first time in a long time he's slept in a crib at Papa's house. (usually he sleeps with papa)
*here's where the story gets good.
We decided to go to family breakfast at the Steak House in town on Sunday morning. My kids are big breakfast eaters so they ate a bowl of cereal at Papa's when they got up... we don't get breakfast til about 11 usually anyhow, so it's more like lunch. Anyways, we get our food ordered and are readily enjoying it. Camden was hoovering down his pancake, a little too quickly, chugging water, and hoovering some more. Yep, you guessed it, he started to choke on a piece, which turned to gagging, which turned to, yep... barf. In a restaurant at the table. OH - EM- GEE! This really is one of my worst nightmares. I hate barf, hate hate HATE barf. More than the average person. ICK! But I held it together, Colby took him outside for some air, all the while Camden was screaming cause he wanted to finish his food and I cleaned up barf off the floor. EWWWWW! Luckily it was nothing more than a case of eating too fast. Colby took Camden home and I ran over and snagged a delivery car from work and parked it in a good spot for the parade and had Grandma Cleone run me home. Cadynce went home with Papa to enjoy the afternoon with some one-on-one time. I walk in the door and realize somewhere along the way I've lost Cam's blankey. Great. Thank goodness I called the Steak House and one of the ladies found it outside. Colby went to pick it up and switch out his truck for the delivery car.
Enter nap time. Camden goes down, but then poops, so Colby gets him and changes him. He still won't go to sleep and begins freaking out. We tried all the stops and after a few minutes I realized he was really messing with his ear. Our normal doctors office was closed, the ten minute walk in clinic was closed and so our only option was the ER. We headed up to the hospital hoping to beat all the normal 4th of July injuries and we did. Got in and out in no time at all. However, Camden has double ear infections, bad and worse. So bad, they even gave him Vicoden and a prescription for it too! Whoa!
He got in a little nap, and Colby and him met me and Cadynce down in town for the parade. After that we went to John and Lauren's to celebrate John's birthday and play with fireworks. We were home by 8:30 with kids in bed shortly after. Cadynce ended up in our bed about 9:15 or so because all the booms were scaring her. Camden was out cold until about midnight when he joined us...


Happy Independence Day! Hope you all enjoyed a less eventful holiday than we did!

birthday bowling.

the birthday girl and her daddy.

chloe rockin' a tutu.

sweet sweet girls.

baby sophie lou

charlie!

make a wish!

better. sort of.

I have now finished my five days of antibiotics, but only two days into them, decided that Camden needed to head in because his eyes have been looking pretty icky. We now have our first ever case of pink-eye in the house. I've always heard it's reallllly contagious, but somehow we've all escaped it. Not sure who's at work with that, but thank you whoever you are!
Yesterday we went to Ron and Stacie's house for a BBQ. Our kids always love it because they live on a huge farm and have lots of room for running around and playing. Colby headed down to the river with Skylar (their son) and went fishing for a bit...Kali (their daughter) is crazy and played in the pool for hours while me and Stac got dinner going. We had a nice little fire and everyone had lots of fun. Colby and the kids played baseball for a little bit and our kids climbed into their trailer and watched Cars and Shark Tale. It was really nice to have a laid back evening and visit with friends as a family. This is something we need to work on doing more often. Tonight we're going to papa's house to try out his new fire pit and have dinner with him. We're going to have s'mores and probably even spend the night! My kiddos are still exhausted and turning brown from the little bit of summer sun we've had. Time to soak it up while we can!
Hope you all have a Happy 4Th!


p.s. it's weird to not be on Lopez this year, we did really enjoy our week up there last summer. plus, it's my ten year reunion...oh well, there's always the twenty right?